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Reaching Prison

Why there’s a need to reach for something for fulfillment needs to be understood or you will remain a prisoner to the reaching and you will always have a need to satisfy some inner lack…

What’s missed the most in my writings is the understanding of how all reaching is the same regardless of what is being reached for. The reaching itself is all the same and make no mistake your reaching is your prison. There are so many things reached for, from ayahuasca, to Heroin, a Hersey chocolate kiss, love, God, or whatever, it’s the reaching that needs to be looked at. Nobody just reaches for something, something tells you there’s a lack that needs to be filled so let’s go and reach for something. This is where the misunderstanding occurs because one thinks reaching for ayahuasca is different than reaching for Heroin, the true nature of the reaching isn’t identified, so you remain the same even though the things being used are different. It’s easier to justify when you are reaching to help others than reaching for Heroin, but it’s still reaching so an inner lack still needs to be fulfilled. I write to identify why there’s a need to reach at its core. It’s what was revealed to me as being the cause of all my problems; with self centeredness as the reachings supportive energy.

You may say this is crazy, how can reaching for God be the same as reaching for a drink of alcohol or how can reaching for ayahuasca be the same as reaching for Heroin, but it is because it all arises from the inability to truly be present right now. If there’s lack, this will be reinforced by the need to reach; if this isn’t grasped you’ll remain in your prison. Understanding this is difficult, but it’s why I don’t push to develop a program or I won’t become a life coach, to me it’s all nonsense. I will point anyone to look within to find their own inner beauty; the only thing needed to do this is to learn to live with what’s here now. This is what anything should point to, but because the need to reach isn’t understood, there’s reaching for the next fix so you remain its prisoner…

Heart/Mind View

When the thought of I want peace arises initially it’s from the mind. For it to become of the heart I want will have to be let go of so all that is left is peace…

There are two ways to view life. One is from the mind, which is the view of ideas, concepts, beliefs, and stories, and the other is from the heart which needs none of the things listed from the mind, especially the stories. When the minds view is in control it produces stress, fear, tension, greed, anxiety and a slew of other things that don’t necessarily add anything to life. When the heart is the controlling view, there’s peace, and as one learns to sit quietly and the mind settles peace becomes the norm. There are many distractions of a mind state that keeps you entrapped to all the things mentioned before. These distractions will only subside when I wanting is let go of. Living from the mind is learned and because it’s so much more influenced by the world, unconsciously it becomes the norm.

Living from the heart will also have to be learned because of these influences. Any suffering that occurs is directly linked to the thought about it, so if you don’t have the thought of suffering you won’t suffer. Simple, but this will only occur through understanding and learning what it will take to remove the mind view. Mind and heart reactions are much different and because the mind has been conditioned to fulfill I wants and desires, I becomes the cause of the mind made suffering. When there’s a thought of I want peace initially it’s from the mind, but for it to become of the heart, this has to happen, I want will have to be let go of so all that’s left is peace, until this happens the mind will continue its control of the way life is viewed…

I AM Completeness

Attach to nothing and nothing will be needed. Imagine that, not needing anything to be complete simply because through understanding I AM your completeness already is…

Without looking inward being aware of how not create stories will not occur. This writing is a story of how not to create stories, but the awareness of why it’s written helps to minimize the attachment to it so thus once it’s written it‘s complete. All stories end or not depending on how “I“ relates to it. The more “I” needs it, the more it’s attached to and the more of a story is created. No “I” attachment, no “I” needed story, no “I” needed story, no “I” incompleteness, so all you are left with is the completeness of I AM, not the story, but the actual reality of I AM.

Story after story of “I” is created… the story of how “I” feel, or the story of my book, or my life’s story, every life is an endless book of “I” stories, that is until one becomes aware the “I” story teller and the “I” story are one in the same. Being with I AM instead of a created story will be the most difficult thing you will ever do in life; just be in the silence of I AM. Attach to nothing and nothing will be needed. Imagine that, not needing anything to be complete with the understanding your completeness already is. It‘s right here within your grasp, but you will never truly be aware of it until you realize it’s not a story that you are grasping for, it’s learning to simply be with I AM…

A Moments Touch

The Conditioned Mind always wants the moments touch pleasant, but until you can be with the unpleasant the same as the pleasant, there will always be self created suffering…

Because of the way one becomes conditioned, each moments touch with life is put into a category of like or dislike; there are times it seems the moments touch is neutral. The only reason anyone has an issue with life is because it’s desirable to have each moments touch pleasant, but this is impossible because life isn’t designed in this way. Not that life personally does anything to anyone, but things do happen that can be considered unpleasant .Case in point is the current pandemic situation. The label unpleasant can be attached to, it doesn’t change what’s happening it only changes the degree of suffering; the suffering is the direct result of attaching to wanting the moments touch different. If there isn’t attachment it doesn’t mean what’s happening is liked, but you can be in the moments touch of something being unpleasant and not attach a label to it.

Life just rolls along, it stops for nothing. The moments touch is one continuous motion. It may seem like individual things are happening, but that’s only because of the way your conditioning uses time and breaks life up into segments. The unpleasant is constantly pushed away to try and make room for what is considered pleasant; as if when one decides it’s pleasant, it makes life perfect. For there not to be suffering, life has to be seen as perfect in the moments touch because that’s what’s there. The Conditioned Mind wants life a certain way (pleasant) all the time, but until you can be with the unpleasant the same as the pleasant, there will always be self created suffering. This is because you will always be trying to arrange the moments touch the way you think it should be and not be with the moments touch the way it actually is…

Universal Silence

We live an existence torn between listening to the silence of the Universe and attaching to the sounds of the world. By being aware of the first part the energy necessary that prevents the second naturally occurs…

The selfish and destructive conditioned mind behavior that was in control for much of my life has mostly settled in a place of neutrality. I would never say the conditioning is gone forever because by attaching to it as so would give it the needed energy to return. It’s very important to see the present moment as being the point of contact where the world is connected to, but don’t make it into a story. We live an existence torn between listening to the silence of the Universe and attaching to the sounds of the world. By being aware of the first part the energy necessary to prevent the second naturally occurs; truth settles in stillness.

You will never stop the sounds of the world or there will never be an entire world of love. You can however listen to your own heart and not be a part of the worlds noise by keeping your own house in order instead of being drawn to the noise and trying to change everything else. When you are mindful of your own conditioning and have awareness of the place where there’s a connection to the world, this is the space where the world is offered your true self. But make no mistake this doesn’t occur by trying to change the world or by ignoring its sounds, it simply happens by hearing the silence of the Universe beneath all the noise…

Unconsciously Conditioned

If there isn’t some semblance of quietness in your life the Conditioned Mind will run the show and although life will still be lived as you are alive, it will mostly be in a state of unconscious suffering…

The root cause of why you behave as you do isn’t understood by most so you will never go beyond it. This understanding is what leads to awaking up from a sleeping state that keeps you entrapped to causing your own suffering; not intentional, but suffering nonetheless. This has to be understood in order to alleviate the mechanisms in place that cause this. Suffering is caused by an unconscious conditioned mind state and unless this conditioning ceases to exist suffering results have to follow. Every cause has a effort; this occurs whether the cause is understood or not.

Learning about the Conditioned Mind is life altering, but only if it’s deeply understood. Life cannot be anything but what the conditioning in place dictates it to be so life (unconsciously) is made to be what it is; this is why sitting is necessary to allow the mind to settle. If there isn’t some semblance of quietness in your life the Conditioned Mind will run the show and although life will be lived because you are alive, it will mostly be so in a state of unconscious suffering. As subtle as it may be, a mind conditioned to suffer will always do so because it’s what’s in place. Change the conditioning, change what’s in place; when that happens that’s when your suffering will change…

Storied Point of View

When there’s awareness that your point of view is a made up story, stillness takes its place. This stillness is always there, but not experienced because your storied point of view blocks it…

Without a made up point of view story everyone would see life through the eyes of stillness which by the way are the eyes of love, but because of a storied point of view this isn’t seen. The storied points of view are from the energy of unconsciousness, this makes everything that happens in life about your point of view, but it isn’t truly ever about what is seen, it‘s not about anything in particular except when a point of view is formed.

A point of view is what makes the mind attach to thoughts and those attachments cause the associated thoughts to control your life. What is really happening is this, life just happens it’s not personal, it’s not about anything you think it is. It’s not about right, wrong, love, hate, good or bad, it‘s mostly about learning to understand your minds true nature of stillness and not being lead around by your storied point of view; whatever you make it. When there’s awareness of this you will truly be still; a stillness that has always been there, but was never experienced because of a storied point if view which doesn’t allow it to be seen…

Right Now Results

Life itself is a result of the energy that’s attached to so if you stop attaching to past energy patterns life naturally becomes different on its own as its energy is transformed…

Regardless of what was done in the past its results only affect you if you give it energy. The past itself has no controlling energy, what does give it control is attachment to it. Nothing should ever be denied that was done, but nothing that was done should ever be held onto. This isn’t to absolve you of the responsibility of acting in an unloving manner, but the judgement of others can’t do you the harm that you do to yourself. The results of your actions are the result of your own energy; you needn’t be judged as unloving for you to be ruled by the judgement of being unloving.

If there is unrest in your life it’s because of this energy. It’s impossible to be in a state of unrest without its energy. If it’s truly investigated why this energy is in place, it will be seen that most of the time it will have to do with carrying the results of a past energy pattern into the present. Once the results of a past energy pattern is attached to and brought into the present, it’s very difficult for it to go away. It usually has to run its course, but it doesn’t have to ever be attached to if it can be noticed beforehand; this is key if there is to be peace. Life itself is only a result of the energy that’s attached to, so stop attaching to the result of a past energy pattern and watch life naturally become different as its energy is transformed. You will never change your life on your own, how it changes and how its results become different is by not attaching to past energy patterns and just being with what’s in front of you right now…

United Agenda

If you think an individual agenda will change the world you will be largely disappointed, not in your effort, but in the results of the world not changing…

A large part of the problem when it comes to the world changing is individual agendas. There’s way to much energy wasted on these; if the world is to change it has to be done as a united agenda to love. We all need to have a united heart and give that agenda to the heart of others. This agenda is from the Universe and it’s the awakened heart that realizes this. An awakened heart is not limited to certain religious belief or mind made concepts, it‘s open to anyone who has a pure heart. The only way for it to be pure is to remove its pollutants. An example of this would be polluted water: Nothing has to be added to polluted water to return it to its natural state of purity, all that needs to be done is to remove the pollutants.

Certain religious belief and concepts are actually a deterrent to being united. Although religion is a way to develop the discipline needed to quiet the mind, it is the Universe that is of unity not some dogma or doctrine made up by what someone thinks. The Universe is our guide, but the mind has to be very quiet to see where the guidance leads. I don’t mean a made up guidance to make an individual feel they’re doing their part, I mean a guidance that is united and nothing else. When you die all you leave behind is the unity you have others. Nothing else really means that much. If the world ended tomorrow and whose to say it won’t, what did all your individual agenda accomplish, except maybe to say “I know I did my part” whatever that means.

The only thing that matters is to remove all your pollutants so unity energy is emitted to all beings; this is a Universe doing. What I share is a message of unity, but it’s not my unity it’s the unity of the Universe. Of myself I can do nothing but self seek. It’s through the surrendering of your own agenda that the Universe will find the best possible way to use you; what that results in is up to the Universe not some individual agenda. In unity is our strength, it‘s the self serving agenda that keeps us from being united by love…

Presence of Now

Outside grasping uses distractions based on things that attach to the world. Now has no such attachment and is based in the eternal; there are no distractions in the Presence of Now…

Regardless of what’s grasped as a distraction, what everything has in common is they’re designed to take you from the Presence of Now because a belief is formed that outside grasping is needed. Look how the mind uses grasping mind patterns as distractions and although their nature is all the same, they’re different in how the mind uses things.

Have you ever thought I can’t wait until I retire, or if my boss was different, if only I could change jobs, my spouse, my circumstances, if only, if only, if only. This is the distraction of an if only mind; a mind conditioned to constantly grasp. The grasping distraction tells you things need to be different and when they are you’ll be okay. This distraction only occurs because you don’t know how to be content with the Presence of Now. It’s mind boggling how the entire struggle with life is to find peace; we look for it in all the places except in the only place that it exist, Now. When you‘re okay with the way things are, no distractions occur and there’s no need to look outside yourself because you have what you’re looking for; when you stop looking, you stop being distracted.

Investigate this so you can understand the nature of your distractions. There would never be a need for the mind to be distracted if you were content Now. This doesn’t mean you don’t do things for the future, but your sense of well-being shouldn’t be based on anything but Now. An outside base uses distractions from the world, an inside base uses things that are eternal, of Universal Energy, and it’s only in the Presence of Now that allows one to be truly content…