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Imperfectly Perfect

Most people will say life is perfect if everything is going their way, it can always be perfect regardless of the circumstances, but only if it’s seen how all things are impermanent, including life itself…

If you think life is imperfect it will be imperfect, and if you think it’s imperfect, but say it’s perfect, it will still be a imperfect. I equate this to whistling in the dark to keep away the bogeyman. As long as you’re whistling the distraction will keep it in check, but the moment you stop the bogeyman returns. The key is to identify why you think life is imperfect and be with it as it is. People say be positive, but being positive to me doesn’t change the facts of why I am labeling life imperfect instead of perfect. Unpleasant stuff does happen in life and if it’s just masked over it becomes ingrained as an energy pattern in the subconscious that never goes away. This is how life becomes imperfect instead of perfect. Life itself is always perfect, it’s people who are conditioned to make it something else, this is another lie of the Conditioned Mind.

Most people will say life is perfect if everything is going their way, it can be perfect regardless of the circumstances, but the circumstances shouldn’t be ignored. Life will be perfect when it’s seen in the light of how all things are impermanent including life itself. I get it, being ill, losing a loved one, and many others things that occur in life stink, but what makes you think it stinks is the attachment to what occurs. Labeling it that it stinks doesn’t change what’s occurring, it only changes where life is put on the perfect/imperfect scale. When the true essence of life (impermanence) is understood, it puts life on the perfect scale regardless of what’s going on because it’s seen one day life in this form simply will not be…

Reaching Crutch

Reaching is like wishing your life away as it keeps you from experiencing the present moment. It’s used as a crutch because what’s occurring right now is always what’s here as opposed to reaching for the present moment to be different…

Many people think reaching is something that’s needed, but it’s used strictly as a crutch by the Conditioned Mind and it keeps you from not understanding what it means to be in the present moment. It’s a direct cause of suffering as it makes you believe it’s something that’s needed by making you live life in the future. The Conditioned Mind does this by telling you the present moment isn’t good enough and it needs to be different. It projects a lie that things would be better if they were in some other way, and maybe on the surface they would be, but inward is where one derives the perception that makes life what it is; so it will be a life of suffering or one of contentment. Even if what is reached for is attainable, it won’t last, especially when it’s from the surface. Inward there is a slight better chance for it to have a lasting affect, but this is only if one is awake enough to see this.

Let’s say you’re diagnosed with some kind of illness, the only thing reaching does is it makes you wish the diagnoses was different, but it doesn’t change the fact of what is occurring right now. The illness remains regardless of what’s reached for. If your life isn’t needed to be different and it’s accepted as it is, you will experience the peace of the present moment and this is regardless of what’s occurring. This is because right now is the only place of true existence so it’s important to see this, not in the future, but right now because right now doesn’t need to be reached for because it already exist…

Mind Nonsense

Peace is the natural process of awareness because when you’re aware of your Conditioned Mind nonsense the nonsense loses its hold falls away and peace naturally arises…

If you are always doing something this is because of the unawareness of how the Conditioned Mind is in control. Without awareness you won’t be able to apply the brakes and stop doing so the nonsense of your conditioning will remain in place. This nonsense of the Conditioned Mind will not be seen by a mind that’s attached to it. I woke up this morning and my postings for the day were done because I did it at night, so my mind began to look for something to do. This is the value of awareness because instead of blindly following the nonsense of doing, I was able to look down at my feet which immediately stopped the nonsense energy needing to do something. You cannot put a price tag on this awareness because life is so much different then when it’s full of the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind.

Do this, do that, look over there, if only, I should, I wish, I want, I need, why did I do that, these is just some of the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind which literally wrecks havoc on life. Without awareness, this havoc is the controlling energy of life and unfortunately this is the energy of most lives. What makes this so damaging is because most people are oblivious that the nonsense exist so it’s nonsense after nonsense. When there’s awareness of the nonsense you can say stop, this immediately transforms your energy from needing to do something to peace. Peace is the natural process of awareness because when you’re aware of your Conditioned Mind nonsense it loses its hold as the need to do something falls away and peace naturally arises…

What’s Allowed In

When I need conditioning isn’t allowed in there’s much more peace in your life, but this isn’t because peace is allowed in, it’s because nonsense isn’t allowed in so naturally there’s peace…

Much goes on in the day to day living and for the most part there’s no control over what happens. Even if there was, with the way the Conditioned Mind has been developed, it wouldn’t change the way things are. The first thing that has to happen for the possibility of any change to take place is you have to understand what’s being allowed in to shape your day to day hence the moment to moment existence. Much is viewed throughout the day, but it’s mostly allowed in through the default setting of the conditioning in place. It’s allowed in, but it’s not done with any sense of awareness so it leads to being controlled like a puppet on a string. There’s no choice in this until there is, but unfortunately until there is, you will allow in things that aren’t beneficial and hence if it’s not beneficial it will cause much trouble and suffering.

Think about the things that are attached to, the list is basically endless, the problem with this is not much that’s grabbed is truly beneficial. We are a species that has lost its way and it’s because of what is allowed in. There is a nothingness to life that has to be seen so one can decipher if what they have been conditioned to allow in is beneficial or not. I allowed a lot in for many years that I thought was beneficial, but in truth it kept me in bondage to the need more conditioning. I always needed more so that’s what was allowed in, but it was never enough. Today it’s much different because to a large degree the need more conditioning isn’t controlling what’s allowed in so there’s much more peace, but this isn’t because peace is allowed in, it’s because nonsense isn’t allowed in so naturally there is peace…

Awakening Propaganda

Sit often and watch your thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that you will see all the awakening propaganda holding you in bondage…

With the emergence of the internet there’s so much information available on awakening that it really needs to be investigated before you consider using it to assist in your development. Here is the definition of Propaganda: information, especially of a biased or misleading nature, used to promote or publicize a particular cause or point of view. To see if the information you are using is authentic and truly beneficial, there can’t be anything associated with it that forms attachment. Methods, programs, guru’s, life coaches, teachers, or anything for that matter is a form of propaganda that’s used to keep you attached; it keeps you entrapped to the very thing you’re trying to break free of. Just as there’s a lot of “fake news” out there today, there’s also a lot of fake information on awakening. Being awake is not something that’s truly understood by many people because most of the information out there is propaganda to keep you in bondage in some way. Those telling you to buy their book, pay for retreats run by paid speakers, or follow (instant bondage) a program are clever to a fault, with the fault being spreading propaganda.

The only thing that’s needed is to the look within so one millisecond of space is created between your thoughts. Once this occurs and there’s awareness of it, more and more space will slowly expand; it takes nothing but awareness to expand this space. The propaganda out there that someone’s program, book, method or whatever has your answer will keep you in bondage to the very thing you’re trying to break free from. I know people defend their so called guru or people they follow adamantly, but it’s only because there’s no awareness of the bondage they’re in. Sit often and just watch the thoughts come and go, eventually there will be more and more space between them. It’s in this space that you will see all the awakening propaganda holding you in bondage…

Restricted Choices

Going through life without an understanding of how your mind works makes your existence much more difficult because it restricts your options, and restricting your options restricts your choices…

We discover the cause of all suffering when we are truly able to see our mind for what it is and understand how it creates feelings and emotions that aren’t real. They feel real because of what our association is to them, but their reality is only relative to our thinking and the association to our identity. When this is discovered and we disassociate with this kind of thinking, we become more aligned with the Creative Intelligence of the Universe which to me is love; love is what gives us so many more choices in life.

When we stop believing in the nonsense of the self created world of thought, we learn how to allow love to be our guide. This is when we will be able to see our thoughts for what they truly are, disassociate them from who we are and separate the ones that cause suffering and aren’t beneficial to anyone; this is when our suffering ceases to exist. This is not some belief, it’s something factual and I know this because it’s my direct experience. A thought cannot cause anything unless it’s given the energy needed to do so and this is what determines if the thought is held onto or not. The more it’s held onto, the more control it has over you. In the awareness of this is one’s freedom. It’s one’s own ignorance of this that creates one’s own suffering, and the suffering is caused by going through life without an understanding of how the mind works because it restricts your options and with restricted options your choices are limited…

Missing Life

So many people are lost chasing life that the true essence of each moment is missed. And if you’re missing the moment because you’re chasing it, you will miss your life…

To experience peace, what you’re chasing has to be realized so the chasing can stop. So much life is spent chasing the next fix that most of it is missed. It’s always about what’s here right now in this moment, but because of the conditioning in place that’s the last place where one spends their time. Life itself has nothing to do with the past or future, it’s the conditioning in place that needs them to fill in the space created by not being able to live in the present. The real chase of life is learning to be okay in the present, but why the chase remains in place is because one is conditioned to use tools that keeps you from living in the present. It shouldn’t be difficult to be present because it’s the only true place of existence, but the diabolical conditioned mind wants you to be in every other place except the present.

I was trapped chasing for forty nine years. Although on the surface it seemed I had everything I wanted, the conditioning that made me need to chase was always in place; the chase never stopped. This is why I often say programs, another book, a different job, spouse, car, home, social status, yada, yada, yada, don’t stop the chase, because of the conditioning in place as soon as something is grabbed, something else is used to chase after. Positive or negative don’t matter in any of this, all that matters is the chase. If you are chasing to be the little engine who could, it’s no different than being the little engine who couldn’t. So many people are lost chasing life that the true essence of each moment is missed and if you miss the moment because you’re chasing it, you will miss your life…

The Need to Reach

When there’s a need to reach for something for satisfaction, it has to be addressed or you‘ll remain in the grip of the reaching and you will always have to satisfy some inner need…

What’s missed by most people is the understanding that all reaching is the same regardless of what’s being reached for. The reaching itself is all the same and make no mistake when you reach you’re in prison. There are so many prisons, from ayahuasca, to Heroin, a Hersey chocolate kiss, love, God, or whatever, the reaching is what needs to be focused on. Nobody just reaches for something, there’s a need to be filled so let’s go and reach for something. This is where the misunderstanding occurs because one thinks reaching for ayahuasca is different than reaching for Heroin. The true nature of the reaching isn’t identified so you remain the same even though the things being used are different. It’s easier to justify when you’re reaching to help others than reaching for Heroin, but it’s still reaching to fill a need. I share my experience on why there’s a need to reach. It was revealed to me that reaching is the cause of all my problems because self-centeredness is the reachings supportive energy.

You may think it’s crazy how reaching for God is the same as reaching for a drink of alcohol or that reaching for ayahuasca is the same as reaching for Heroin, but it is because it all arises from the inability to truly be present. If there’s need it will be reinforced by the reaching; if this isn’t understood you’ll remain in your prison. Understanding this is difficult and it’s why I don’t push to develop a program or I won’t become a life coach; to me it’s all nonsense. I will point anyone to look within to find their own inner beauty; the only thing needed is to learn to live with what’s here now. This is what should be pointed to, but because the need to reach isn’t understood there’s reaching for the next fix so you remain its prisoner…

Unconscious Mind Activity

Beneath the unconscious mind activity there’s nothing but space. This is difficult to see because life isn’t about what you think it is. In fact it isn’t about anything you think it is, but it’s not seen because of trying to figure it out through unconscious mind activity…

Round and round the mind goes and where it stops nobody knows. This is a perfect example of unconscious mind activity that’s in place for most people. One thought after another, no space, no quietness, just the noise of thought manifesting itself. If you could just sit back in a space where the noise subsides, there’s a chance to truly see what many mystic’s spoke of. If you think you have an idea of what life is about, I’m sorry to disappoint you, but that’s just noise. There are no answers to what life is about and the more solid the existence, the more you will think you have life figured out. I’m not saying I know what life is about, but I do know what it isn’t about and it has nothing to do with what is seen through the eyes. The more you’re controlled by the senses the less life is truly experienced. Below the unconscious mind activity of the senses is the only place where life is truly experienced. You can travel all around the world and make up the story of all the beauty around you, but it’s only a story conjured up to provide sense pleasure and store it as a memory to be used later. Beneath the surface no story is needed, no pleasure is needed, in fact nothing is needed because this is where true life exist.

Think about it, your entire life is a story until one day your story ends. Every experience is taken with you as if they never occurred. They were thought to be needed so you could make sense of your life, but really they mean absolutely nothing because they’re all created from the unconscious mind activity of the senses. Buddha talked about of delusion, Jesus spoke of not being of this world, to me this is what they were talking about? If you remain trapped in unconscious mind activity, you will remain in your suffering. Even those who think they understand this don’t because it’s not something to understand. Beneath the unconscious mind activity there’s nothing but space, this is where the possibility arises of truly seeing what life is about. Why there’s difficulty in seeing this is because life isn’t about anything that you think it is. In fact it’s about everything you think it isn’t and this is because of the trying to figure it out on through unconscious mind activity…

Hearts Connected

There’s a connection with others that comes from a deep place, it’s not a place that’s associated with any human activity, it’s a place which simply connects us all from the silence of our hearts…

In my experience the silence of the heart cannot expand on its own, it needs connections. Deepening a connection with others deepens the silence of the heart which is what binds us together. If this binding to each other were to happen there would be no more greed, hate, or war because we would fall over each other in silence; it’s in this silence that the magnificence of life is experienced. A majestic sunset, a cool summer breeze, the magnificence of the ocean, a starlit night, loving oneself and others is a binding to all humanity, these are experiences from the deep silence within.

I don’t profess to know what life is about, but I do understand how silence deepens our connections to others; when this is experienced it leaves one speechless. For me because of all my connections I have been speechless many times in the last thirteen years. I’m using the word silence to describe this, but to feel this connection words cannot truly explain it. To speak with someone and as I explain what I went through, I can hear our hearts connecting. There’s connection that comes from such a deep place of silence; it’s not something that any human activity can make happen. Only when there’s a deepening connection with others which allows for a deepening silence of our own heart will there be a connection; with ourselves and with all humanity…

Inner Beauty

It’s the selfish view of “I” that keeps you from the vision of seeing your own inner beauty. This vision of inner beauty only occurs when your vision comes from looking within…

Although we are all equal when it comes to existence, there are some who do see things differently than most. What makes this happen by looking within. It’s not that some are chosen, but I would say some are more inclined to not attach to a selfish view which allows for a clearer vision than if you’re in the grip of a “I” based mind. The two views I’ve experienced are vastly different, one was in the direction (outer) where there was much self created suffering, the other is a view in the direction (inner) of non attachment. The differences in the two views is one created suffering and was done in unconscious ignorance and the one today is lived in awareness of the ignorance. Today my view is as it is because the selfish distractions are in control as much as they once were; there is still conditioning it’s just not as control.

Having a vision of your own inner beauty is a by product of awareness and as the selfish view of “I” is let go of; this opens up space to allow wisdom and insight to occur. This opening is directly linked to the letting go. It’s the “I” that attaches and causes suffering. Ever so slowing when one begins to look inward the distraction of “I” falls away. This is what was revealed to the great mystic’s that people considered special, but all they did was look within. This looking within is available to everyone, but you will have to overcome the selfish view of “I” that keeps you distracted from the vision of your own inner beauty which will only be seen when you look within…

Beyond Mind

If you’re stuck in a mind based existence, you’re being held captive by a mind based world. This is a prison you will only be released from by going beyond your mind into the space of Now…

You cannot have a problem in your life that isn’t created by your own mind. This doesn’t mean things that occur are always beneficial, but regardless of what happens it’s your mind that makes something a problem, and it comes from within yourself. Lots of things happen throughout the day and each time there’s a choice to make it a problem or not. Everyone has this choice, it just takes a certain amount of discipline for this to be seen. What discipline does is it slows down the thought process that runs continuously. This slowing down is the beginning of truth arising; without the slowing the necessary quietness that allows this will not happen.

If the mind is the base of your existence noise will be the base of your decisions. This will not allow you to watch the nonsense of the Conditioned Mind and if this nonsense isn’t seen, the mind will never slow down and there won’t be any Now space created. When life is mind based (unconsciousness) it’s as though life is a struggle. When the mind slows down you can see how it’s the Conditioned Mind that takes everything that happens and makes it either problematic or pleasurable. This revelation will assist in breaking free of the hold your mind has over you and you’ll be able to see that you’re not the mind, you’re beyond the mind (consciousness). This doesn’t mean unpleasant things won’t happen, on the contrary life will still happen, you just won’t allow yourself to make it a problem. When this occurs and you have no created problems with life the next step in the process of going beyond a mind existence into the space of Now will be realized…

Creating a Need

The Conditioned Mind creates the lie of a need, the heart sees fulfillment beyond the need. Until this is realized you will have to constantly reach for something to try and fill a need that doesn’t exist…

For many years I would say I had this need in me that was created from a lack of love and that’s why I constantly reached outside myself to fill it; I have since come to understand this differently. This need isn’t a need at all, it’s a lie that blocks fulfillment which is the essence of life. It’s where life happens when one is busy making other plans. By not understanding this fulfillment I spent most of my life chasing it with whatever I could get my hands on. This is an endless list as to what was used, each individual has to investigate for themselves what’s on their list. It’s ironic though because now most of my life is spent in the fulfillment that for so long I considered a need; this is the truth that has been revealed to me.

To fill this misunderstood lie is the reason why anyone reaches for anything or wants life to be different. If this space was understood for what it truly is, humanity would be much different because fulfillment would be the way of the world. The need is a lie the Conditioned Mind creates. By constantly needing the present moment different it keeps you reaching as the need is seemingly always in place. This will have to be understood if the reaching is ever going to stop. When it is understood the need transforms to fulfillment because the present moment doesn’t have to be different. And when the present moment doesn’t have to be different, life reveals its true essence as fulfillment which doesn’t have to be reached for because it’s not needed…

Desire Energy

When you’re not looking to derive pleasure from an arisen desire the desire loses its tantalizing lure, so without being controlled by desire you’re able to be with what’s actually in front of you…

There’s nothing inherently wrong with desire in the sense that it’s good or bad, but because of desires nature, the mind gets pulled into whatever arises and you lose touch with what’s in front of you. Desiring can be draining because of the energy it needs. It’s one of the reasons why after certain desires run their course, there’s some guilt and remorse that follows. Giving into desires takes a lot of energy, it’s an energy that can’t sustain itself, it needs constant reinforcement because the self that desires is never fulfilled. Love on the other hand is just the opposite, it needs nothing to sustain itself. It’s neither draining nor does it need reinforcement because it arises from stillness, as everything does. Think about it, everything arises from the energy of stillness and eventually that’s where it returns.

Fulfilling a desire is very satisfying or it wouldn’t be so enticing, but because of the nature of it being fulfilled doesn’t last and more energy needs to be spent when more desiring arises. These desires usually occur one right after the other, some are glaring and some are subtle so it’s difficult to really notice all of them. The glaring ones seem to have more of an affect on life than the subtle ones, but make no mistake, desire energy is all the same and it’s only there so “I” can be satisfied. I have found not attaching to results really helps in not being overcome by desire, as is the case with my writings. I write and that’s the end of it, it’s what’s in front of me so it’s what I do. When I’m not looking to derive pleasure from an arisen desire it loses its control and without being controlled by it, I’m able to actually simply be with what’s in front of me…

An Impermanent View

Most people will say life is good if everything is going their way. It can always be good regardless of what happens, but only if it’s seen how all things are impermanent including life itself…

Life being considered good or not is from your thinking. It won’t be even if you say it is if that’s what you truly believe; I equate this to whistling in the dark to keep away the bogeyman. As long as you’re whistling the distraction will keep the fear in check, but the moment you stop it will return. The key is to identify why you think life isn’t good and be with it as it is. People say be positive, but being positive to me doesn’t change the facts of why life is labeled as not good. Some not so pleasant things do happen in life and if it’s just masked over and ignored it becomes ingrained as an energy pattern in the subconscious that never goes away. This is how life becomes not good. Life itself is always good, it’s people who are conditioned to make it something else; this is another lie of the Conditioned Mind.

Life will be good when it’s seen in the light of how all things are impermanent including life itself. Believe me I get it, being ill, losing a loved one, living in poverty, being abused, and many others things that occur in life are not good, but what makes it so is the attachment to them. Labeling it not good doesn’t change what’s occurring, it only changes where life is put as being good or not. When the true essence of life (impermanence) is understood, it puts life at the top of being good scale regardless of what’s going on because it’s seen that one day life in this form will neither be good or not good, it simply will not be…

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