We repeat the same mistakes over and over and we constantly respond to the same triggers because we react out of the habit of what’s familiar, and this is done without even realizing it.
Why is it so difficult to awaken? There are many reason for this, but to me the one that sticks out the most is how the Conditioned Mind holds onto what’s familiar even if it’s causing extreme pain. When I was twenty five my oldest brother passed away from an addiction related incident, this forced me (not of my own accord) to look at my alcohol and drug use. His death opened my eyes to a degree, but even though my life was a mess, it didn’t mean I was willing to dive in the unfamiliar without my pacifiers to cope with life, and this was with full knowledge that alcohol and drugs were the cause of my problems. It took another two years before a decision was made that I had enough, but even though I was going into unfamiliar territory I figured it had to be better than the way I was living.
The reason it took two years was because although I was in extreme emotional pain, my conditioning led me to believe facing the unknown was to scary and the familiar was the way to go; the lies of the Conditioned Mind run deep. This is why we repeat the same mistakes over and over and it’s also why we constantly react to the same triggers, we react out of habit without even realizing it. The conditioning in place dictates what to do and it’s obeyed without question, and here’s the real irony in all of this, people actually believe they have free will and they have a choice, but the only thing one can do is submit to what’s familiar because that’s what’s in place. Once there’s awareness of this, succumbing to the familiar can be stopped and the choice to live life freely becomes a possibility along with the free will to not give in to the Conditioned Mind.