There are two views in life, the thought and thoughtless; these occur simultaneously. Through the thought view alone it’s as though one is asleep, but when one awakens these two views become one.
I have never experienced a sense of no self in my shift, but it became apparent to me that the cause of every issue I had definitely seemed to be due to a self centered, self serving (thought) view. The word seemed is used because although it wasn’t realized at the time, my life was the way it was because it was conditioned to be this way, and underneath this conditioning there was another view of life occurring at the same time as this one. This to me is duality, not in the sense of another dimension of life, but more so living unconsciously or consciously at the same time because these views exist simultaneously.
Unconscious is the way life is lived through the self centered, self serving conditioning, which is strictly a developed thought view, even though it’s developed unconsciously. Then there’s the other view simultaneously occurring where there aren’t any thoughts, there’s no self centered, self serving conditioning here because it isn’t contingent on thought, it’s where life truly happens as consciousness. When there’s awareness that both of these views occur at the same time, one is conscious, at least this is the shift that occurred to me and this shift isn’t contingent on any thought because it exist without thought.
It wasn’t that it became apparent that the self didn’t exist, but what did become apparent was that the thought view that was being held onto for an identity, was the cause of every issue I had in my life. Life through this awareness becomes much different because the view of living unconsciously through thought slowly gets replaced with a view where one lives consciously without thought. When this occurs, the self centered and self serving thought view falls away as it merges into a view of loving kindness.