There are defining moments in life that expose the lies that lead to truth. But this truth doesn’t define who one is, it defines who one isn’t. And once who one isn’t is defined, what’s left is who one is.
When one comes upon a defining moment in life, depending on where they’re at in their state of consciousness, it will either be used as a defining moment to ones awakening or it will be missed and the moment will delve one deeper into their unconsciousness. When one is aware of this defining moment, it puts one in alignment with their true essence of love. This is a moment that changes the direction of ones entire existence. One can have many defining moments, a few of them, or just one. I had one in 2007 that altered the way I viewed my entire existence.
I know exactly the date on which this occurred. It was September 25, 2007. I was stuck in the bondage to a two year addiction to pain medication, my children were 13 and 11 at the time. I was driving pass a wedding and for no particular reason a question arose “how am I going to be there for my children if I don’t get off this pain medication” This was my defining moment, the moment where I saw the lie of needing to use pain medication. When this lie was exposed it became my defining moment of truth. I call it my defining moment because of what it did for me, it defined who I was at that time; a selfish, self centered, immature baby, who only thought of himself. This defining moment exposed this and it set my life on a course going in the opposite direction. This was not of my doing, it is what the Universe bestowed upon me.
Although at the time I was not totally clear what was occurring, how I see it today is by putting my children’s welfare first, it was the first time in many many years that I genuinely put someone else’s well being before my own. And as stated before, this one defining moment altered my entire existence. It’s not that I didn’t love my children before this, but now by seeing how selfish and self centered I was, I was allowed to see this defining moment as it truly was and this allowed the truth that the lie blinded me from seeing, to set me free.
I now have this moment to use as a reference point to describe the defining moment that transformed my life. It’s not like I don’t habitually return to some of my old conditioned behaviors, but no longer do they define me because I see the behavior was only done because it’s what I was conditioned to do. It doesn’t define who I am. One can make up many stories as to who they are, by only when the defining moments expose one’s lies can truth be known. And what this truth has defined for me is not so much who I am, but more so who I am not, and because the truth of who I am not is known I now know who I am, and it really doesn’t need to be defined.